I've been at my new company for about 8 months now. After about 2 months there, my boss took me aside:
Boss: With all the growth we've experienced, we're reorganizing our engineering group. We'd like for you to be a manager here. Does that sound like something you'd like to do?
Me: Oh, good god, no. That would be a train-wreck.
She skulked away and the status quo remained for a few more months until she quit and her boss came to me.
New Boss: I know that you said previously that you didn't want to manage people, but I want you to know that that option is still available. I think you'd do a good job at it. Have you considered it?
Astonishingly, I had been considering it. I'd spent a good portion of those months interviewing people in their 20s for our open developer positions and was wondering if perhaps programming was a job best suited for people decades younger than me. I answered her with words I thought would never come out of my mouth.
Me: Yes, I am seriously considering it. Maybe I should be a manager.
So, I talked to a few other managers, lost a lot of sleep, watched as my stomach slowly seized up into a tight little knot, and eventually decided to take the plunge. I chatted with her again after a meeting.
New Boss: So, have you come to a decision?
Me: I have, but first I need to confirm something. This meeting we just had, it's one that you organized but frankly I should have organized it months ago. It's shameful and embarrassing that I didn't have the planning and organizational skills to do this myself. Am I really the guy you want managing engineers?
New Boss: Yes.
Me: Have you seen my resume? It's Programmer This and Data Wrangler That. There is NOTHING in there that would indicate that I should be a manager. What on earth makes you think I can do this?
New Boss: Mike, I'm confident that the areas where you might be inexperienced are areas where I can help you and fill in. The areas where you're strong are the areas that I need the most help.
And so it was done. I was managing 3 other engineers. I demonstrated my skills to my new boss with conversations like this:
New Boss: So, how was that status meeting? Was it useful?
Me: Yeah, lots of good information. I wrote down some notes so that I can pass on the info to my engineer, Kevin.
New Boss: Don't worry about that. I'll be covering this with Kevin myself.
Me: But, but, I'm supposed to have weekly check-in meetings with each of my engineers. This was going to be what I talked about.
New Boss: These weekly check-in meetings are for you to find out how they're doing. Just talk to them about how they're feeling.
Me: Feeling? That's ridiculous. I can't spend 30 minutes doing that. I need to filibuster to fill time!
After a few months of that, another manager in the organization left. New Boss asked me to take on his engineers as well as a few other engineers we had picked up in an acquisition. That gave me about 10 people to manage. I plugged away at it with my usual wide-eyed fear and ineptitude. This week I sat down with New Boss for my first review.
New Boss: You've done several things very well. People like working with you and I think you have good instincts about how to treat people. However, although people appreciate your self-deprecating sense of humor, I think as a manager you need to show a little more confidence. I need you to be a leader and convey to the people around you that you know what you're doing. If someone asks you a question you don't know how to answer, it is ok to say, "Let me get back to you on that" but....
Me: But I shouldn't say, "Oh, I'm a total idiot about that sort of thing!"
New Boss: Exactly! Don't say that any more.
Me: So, all you need me to do is change the person that I've been for the last 43 years?
New Boss: I thought this might be a tricky issue for you.
So, uh, this should be amusing. Train, meet wreck.
She skulked away and the status quo remained for a few more months until she quit and her boss came to me.
New Boss: I know that you said previously that you didn't want to manage people, but I want you to know that that option is still available. I think you'd do a good job at it. Have you considered it?
Astonishingly, I had been considering it. I'd spent a good portion of those months interviewing people in their 20s for our open developer positions and was wondering if perhaps programming was a job best suited for people decades younger than me. I answered her with words I thought would never come out of my mouth.
Me: Yes, I am seriously considering it. Maybe I should be a manager.
So, I talked to a few other managers, lost a lot of sleep, watched as my stomach slowly seized up into a tight little knot, and eventually decided to take the plunge. I chatted with her again after a meeting.
New Boss: So, have you come to a decision?
Me: I have, but first I need to confirm something. This meeting we just had, it's one that you organized but frankly I should have organized it months ago. It's shameful and embarrassing that I didn't have the planning and organizational skills to do this myself. Am I really the guy you want managing engineers?
New Boss: Yes.
Me: Have you seen my resume? It's Programmer This and Data Wrangler That. There is NOTHING in there that would indicate that I should be a manager. What on earth makes you think I can do this?
New Boss: Mike, I'm confident that the areas where you might be inexperienced are areas where I can help you and fill in. The areas where you're strong are the areas that I need the most help.
And so it was done. I was managing 3 other engineers. I demonstrated my skills to my new boss with conversations like this:
New Boss: So, how was that status meeting? Was it useful?
Me: Yeah, lots of good information. I wrote down some notes so that I can pass on the info to my engineer, Kevin.
New Boss: Don't worry about that. I'll be covering this with Kevin myself.
Me: But, but, I'm supposed to have weekly check-in meetings with each of my engineers. This was going to be what I talked about.
New Boss: These weekly check-in meetings are for you to find out how they're doing. Just talk to them about how they're feeling.
Me: Feeling? That's ridiculous. I can't spend 30 minutes doing that. I need to filibuster to fill time!
After a few months of that, another manager in the organization left. New Boss asked me to take on his engineers as well as a few other engineers we had picked up in an acquisition. That gave me about 10 people to manage. I plugged away at it with my usual wide-eyed fear and ineptitude. This week I sat down with New Boss for my first review.
New Boss: You've done several things very well. People like working with you and I think you have good instincts about how to treat people. However, although people appreciate your self-deprecating sense of humor, I think as a manager you need to show a little more confidence. I need you to be a leader and convey to the people around you that you know what you're doing. If someone asks you a question you don't know how to answer, it is ok to say, "Let me get back to you on that" but....
Me: But I shouldn't say, "Oh, I'm a total idiot about that sort of thing!"
New Boss: Exactly! Don't say that any more.
Me: So, all you need me to do is change the person that I've been for the last 43 years?
New Boss: I thought this might be a tricky issue for you.
So, uh, this should be amusing. Train, meet wreck.
4 comments:
Don't listen to New Boss. Just keep being yourself. Seriously. Geez.
Buck up, little camper. You can do it! Thought these might be helpful...
http://www.louisehay.com/affirmations/
i love your blog. please post more often.
Anon, I COULD do that, or I could keep getting paid for this job.
Mr. Rogers, thanks for the affirmations link. I look forward to reciting them to you the next time I see you. Oh, who am I kidding, I never see you!
Thanks Ms. Chompers!
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